I'm kind of shy and a bit introverted but cheerful as well with the right people 😊 (infp)

I love art in any form and I like to draw, paint and being creative doing DIY projects and building/ refurbishing things with my hands. I love music and I listen to almost every genre depending on what resonates in the moment and I play a bit of guitar (self taught 😬) and sing, I'd love to learn other instruments too someday, from piano to more peculiar/folk ones.

I feel at home in nature, I live in a city by the sea but It would be awesome to live closer to a forest or in a greener place, my heart belongs to the mountains and celebrating the season cycles, connecting with it daily would be a dream.
I love animals (I have a 14 year old cat Maggie which is my family and that I love more than anything in the world) and i can cook, I enjoy writing, traveling, i'm a movie nerd and also reading is something that allows me to journey with my mind, usually I go for myths, legends, fantasy, sci-fi and children stories but I very much enjoy non fictional books as well. I'm also very interested in physics and astrophysics but I'm soooo not good at it 😂 by the way, it's mentioned in the section above but for the love clarity I am writing it here as well, at the moment I am a plus size girlie so if that's not your flavor I'm sorry for ya 😂

Spiritual curiosity was something I was born with, I had a lot of extraordinary experiences as a child and I still do, so I walked a lot of paths and found myself somehow sticking to the non-dual teachings after a kundalini awakening happened a long time ago 😊 every way leads to the source tho, from pagan to Gnosis, name one, I've probably dived into it at a certain point in my life.

I've been doing some shadow work as well and understanding more on the masculine/feminine energy dynamic and why it's so important to own this knowledge and consciously working on it to have a fulfilling relationship. That's why I decided to try this site, I recently became aware that's not possible for me to have a deep relationship (friendship or romantic) with someone who hasn't 'done the inner work' because ego and projections are always there to sabotage us if we don't know how to handle them.

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After liberation though, my spirituality has naturally shifted to just living life raw, letting go of beliefs and leaving knowledge behind, I'm more interested in "unlearning", just accepting my own nature as it is and less trying to manipulate it or 'grow'. As a result I dropped a lot of the things I previously mentioned in favor of a simpler way of being and nowadays I'm mostly drawn to just embodying consciousness and playing the human game, and just be in the moment. I'm trying to live more from the heart and less from the mind.
Ultimately the no-self can only be experienced thru a self and duality IS liberation, we are nothing and everything, yes, but you're also SOMETHING, this particular and unique human and there's no choice but to honor this.

I'll go as far as saying that spirituality is mostly a scam, a labyrinth created by the minds of people who suffer, to try and find relief and an explanation for their pain. I've been there too but I inquired to the highest truth and luckily I found the way out of the loop. Ultimately liberation is about waking up from the dream so you can go back to it and dream a better dream! God is only present here and now in the screen you're reading this on, in my very words, in your very eyes not in the thoughts constantly questioning what reality is (dual, nondual, whatever) or exotic practices. Surrendering to the paradoxical reality of manifestation while knowing we'll never penetrate the mystery leads to experience the mystery itself.

Unfortunately I struggle to find like minded spiritual people in my area so it would be nice to have some friends to talk to and hopefully find my forever person!
I'm a very curious soul and sometimes I feel there's so much to see and know and experience and so little time... But I'm trusting the universe will lead me to what I'm supposed to do where I'm supposed to be.

The man I'd like to meet is a man of action, someone interested in growing together and supporting each other. I'd love my man to prioritize our relationship and willing to support me financially as well. The type of relationship I'm most attracted to is one where monogamy is non-negotiable and the roles are mostly traditional, I'd love to be mainly a houswife, as someone who has supported myself since forver, I feel the need to live a slower life, in an environment that brings out the softness in me not the survival in me. I do struggle a lot as a sensitive human living in a modern society who can't meet half of my needs, but as a woman I'm the embodiment of the love I wish to give, if a man creates the right container for me to bloom. I want and need safety to unfold and tune into myself, my vulnerable side, to live life in fullness. I'm looking for a relationship where we both can express our witty side, and weird humor and being adventurous as well as home bodies, I'm looking for a genuine compatibility in both personality and goals and serching for a companion who is also my best friend and really enjoys spending time with me.

Unfortunately it's not at all easy to find a partner trustworthy enough and a bond loving enough to be able to put all this power in his hands but that's what my heart craves and I hope I'll be blessed with the right man to start an amazing adventure with. He is mentally and phisically strong, aware of his patterns and coping mechanisms and willing to work on the skills needed to build a sturdy foundation for a lasting connection. He is emotionally intelligent and actively looking to learn about anything that can bring a healthy relationship to fruition.

I'm also not interested myself and therfore in a partner who still subscribes to new age woo woo spirituality which is almost always used as a defensive mechanism to avoid deep inner work, I'm not particularly attracted to people who attend all sorts of retreats and read tons of spiritual book and practice five energy healing modalities and have all sorts of beliefs in the shape of the Earth but then are not educated on the weight of mental load and how it can break a relationship, or romanticize the wild feminine and then fail to recognise and hold its expression and get uncomfortable with it. I'm looking for someone who's actually aware of the hard work required for a connection to grow and last, no spiritual fluff involved.

It would be so refreshing to meet a man which is deeply spiritual in the way he sees the world and his awareness of himself, but still has a normal life, enjoys his day without having to necessarily be a digital nomad, or a homesteader, or living as a guru in Thailand, who can have fun simply having a picnic or watching a movie and not feel compelled to hike the Everest or having a Tantra course, lowkey performing to feel deserving of the "spiritual" label. No shade if you do any of this though, i just honestly believe that most of the time it comes from a place of internalised unworthiness and need to prove something and that's usually bound to become a problem later on. As i said before, I'm really committed to living from the heart and i wish for my partner to be aligned.

I hope i didn't sound too dismissive of your spirituality as some people really take offense when beliefs are questioned, especially when their whole personality is built around those, and it's widely known how the spiritual ego can be a nasty piece of work, but the message above was necessary in order for me to find a partener who's really compatible and i think it will be a pretty good sieve. If you are still reading, thank you for your time, and if my words resonate please get in touch, I'd be honoured to know you.

I don't have a paid membership, just so you know. Can't wait to meet you, future husband, hurry up 🥰

PS. My sexual orientation is undoubtedly straight but scrolling down to the online members section I came across some beautiful women's profiles so if any girl should read mine and feel like connecting, I will be super excited for the possibility of building a deep and powerful friendship as well! ❤️